speak what we feel,

..

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 18:27:30 GMT

I'm having regrets. I know I shouldn't be thinking about all the things that I could have done differently, but I am. And I don't know what to do about it.

Sun, 15 Jul 2007 23:20:45 GMT

I have been thinking for a while about why it is that so many of us, specifically Christian Americans, have such a hard time “hearing” if you will, God’s voice. Why it’s so hard for us to meet with Him, or feel His presence. And I came to the conclusion not long ago that we as a people group are extremely distracted and self-sufficient. We are constantly trying to find things to take up our time (computer- myspace, facebook etc. TV, movies), or we merely have a lot of things taking up our time (School, friends, stuff, etc). And as a result our vision of true reality becomes very blurred, and we walk around very blind to what is really happening in the world.

As self-sufficient goes, most of us are never in need of anything that we seemingly can’t provide for our selves. We are never wondering where our next meal will come from, or where we will sleep each night, etc. We are not dependent on God for these things. Though in theory we say we are, we are never praying that He would provide our next meal for us because we don’t know where it will come from, or that He would keep us alive through the night. Our faith is extremely small as a result of this. I am not intending to be Western-Christianity bashing, I am only saying what I think may be the problem with our generations Christian spirituality.

Many times I feel like God is very silent, and though sometimes this may be true, I think that a lot of the time He is speaking but we cannot hear Him. I believe a large reason for this is because everything around us is screaming on the top of its lungs in our direction. The majority of us don’t see what’s really going on around us because of these distractions.

I have for a couple months now thought about this, but haven’t done crap about it. So for the next week I’m not going to go on the computer or watch television. I hope to become more focused on the things that are important in this world, eternal things like establishing deeper relationships, loving those who aren’t loved, justice, and giving more glory to the only one who actually deserves it. I want you to know that I wasn’t going to write all of this, I was just going to tell you that I wasn’t going to be on the computer for the next week and that you should call me if you needed anything, or wanted to hang out. But I thought that maybe explaining why might get a couple of people to start thinking or something. Or maybe just encourage someone. I don’t know, I just don’t want to sound all holy and stuff.

So yeah it’s going to be for just a week at first, probably more later. Please feel free to share any of your thoughts, ill check back next Monday and reply.

So if you want to get in touch just give me a call.

love, filipe daniel de sousa

do it to it

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 02:12:33 GMT

go to this, some of my friends from nashville...

Thu, 10 May 2007 23:42:59 GMT

is anyone heading out to cornerstone this weekend?

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 20:10:07 GMT

I GOT ACCEPTED TO SEATTLE PACIFIC UNIVERSITY

Mon, 20 Nov 2006 21:12:43 GMT

O Lord, save me from the prostitution that is my life...

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 00:57:41 GMT

I GOT ACCEPTED TO BELMONT

september 26 - Brother, Sister

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 15:46:38 GMT

these guys have a new album coming out next month...
and im excited.

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 00:53:10 GMT

so i was in a good mood

but stephen keeps reminding me of the fact that i'm going to miss anathallo

and now i'm in a not so good mood

Mon, 03 Jul 2006 09:31:42 GMT

so it's 5:30 in the morning.
and i'm off to NY.
stay safe down here without me.

love, Fil.

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 00:44:22 GMT

I don't deserve her...

i'm sorry.

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 21:37:41 GMT

i feel stupid.
i guess that's what happens when you act stupid.

i'm sorry.

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 04:02:20 GMT

she is amazing...

Wed, 30 Nov 2005 23:36:26 GMT

whatever...

2 post's in less than year! watch out

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 23:04:02 GMT

POST AND PUT AN X IN WHAT YOU'VE DONE

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar
( ) made out with a member of the same sex
( ) crashed a friend's car

(X) been in love
(X) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight

( ) snuck out of parent's house
(X) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( ) gone on a blind date

(X) lied to a friend
( ) had a crush on a teacher
(McDonalds?) skipped school
( ) slept with a co-worker
( ) seen someone die

(X) had/have a crush on one of your MYSPACE friends
(X) been to Canada
(X) been to Mexico
(X) been on a plane
( ) thrown up in a bar

(X) eaten Sushi
(X) been snowboarding
( ) met someone BECAUSE of myspace
(X) been moshing at a concert

( ) been in an abusive relationship
( ) taken painkillers
(X) love someone right now
(X) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
(X) made a snow angel

( ) had a tea party
(X) flown a kite
(X) built a sand castle
(X) gone puddle jumping
( ) played dress up

(X) jumped into a pile of leaves
(X) gone sledding
(X) cheated while playing a game
(X) been lonely
( ) fallen asleep at work/school

( ) used a fake ID
(X) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
(X) touched a snake

(X) been tickled
(X) been robbed
( ) robbed someone
(X) been misunderstood
(X) pet a reindeer/goat

(X) won a contest
( ) been suspended from school
(X) had detention
(X) been in a car accident

( ) have/had braces
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(X) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight

(X) hated the way you looked
(X) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced
(X) questioned your heart
( ) been obsessed with post-it notes

(X) squished barefoot through the mud
(X) been lost
( ) been to the opposite side of the country
(X) swam in the ocean
(been ready for Jesus to come back) felt like dying

(X) cried yourself to sleep
(X) played cops and robbers
(X) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
(X) sung karaoke
(X) paid for a meal with only coins

(X) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
(X) made prank phone calls
(X) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
(X) caught a snowflake on your tongue
(we still havent have we?!?) kissed in the rain

( ) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under a mistletoe
(X) watched the sun set with someone you care about
(X) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach

( ) crashed a party
(X) have traveled more than 5 days with a car full of people
(X) gone rollerskating/blading
(X) had a wish come true
( ) humped a monkey..wtf?

( ) worn pearls
(X) jumped off a bridge
( ) screamed "penis" in class
( ) ate cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them

(X) sang in the shower
( ) have a little black dress
( ) had sex in a park
( ) had sex in the bathoom
(X) had a dream that you married someone
(X) glued your hand to something

( ) got your tounge stuck to a pole
( ) kissed a fish
(X) worn the opposite sexes clothes
( ) been a cheerleader
(X) sat on a roof top

( ) had sex in a church
(X) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
(iuno) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
(X) stayed up all night

( ) didnt take a shower for a week
(X) pick and ate an apple right off the tree
(X) climbed a tree
(X) had a tree house
( ) are scared to watch scary movies alone

(X) believe in ghosts
( ) have more then 30 pairs of shoes
(X) worn a really ugly outfit to school
( ) gone streaking
( ) played ding-dong-ditch

(X) played chicken fight
(X) been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on
(X) been told you're hot by a complete stranger
(X) broken a bone
(X) been easily amused

(X) caught a fish then ate it
( ) made porn
(X) caught a butterfly
(X) laughed so hard you cried
( ) cried so hard you laughed

(X) mooned/flashed someone
(X) had someone moon/flash you
(X) cheated on a test
(X) forgotten someone's name

( ) slept naked
( ) French braided someones hair
( ) gone skinny dippin in a pool
( ) been kicked out of your house

Mon, 28 Nov 2005 02:43:35 GMT

Take my Quiz on QuizYourFriends.com!

do it cuz

Sun, 23 Oct 2005 03:07:28 GMT

yeah there's this guy... His names God... and there just arent words...

...there's also this girl... and there just arent words either...

because

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 03:36:01 GMT

Three Names You Go By:
Fil
Filipe
Feeleepie (physics class)

Three Parts of Your Heritage:
Portugues
German
and a lil french i think

Three Things That Scare You:
life
emotions
people

Three of Your Everyday Essentials:
Chelsea
books
food

Three Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
gray shirt
cargo shorts
sandals

Three of Your Favorite Bands or Musical Artists:
right now?
bloc party
beloved
as cities burn

Three of Your Favorite Songs At the Moment:
to many

Three Things You Want in a Real Relationship, besides Real love:
honesty
realness
trust

Two Truths and A Lie:
i like to read
i try to live a selfless life.. TRY
i play the violin

Three Physical Things About the Opposite Sex That Appeal to You:
face
eyes
hair

Three of Your Favorite Hobbies:
conversation
reading
artsy crap

Three Things You Want to do Really Badly right Now:
be with her
leave
sleep

Three Places You Want to go On Vacation:
Italy ;)
France
England

Three Things You Want to do Before You Die:
let God use me to change lives
get married
love like Jesus loved

sitting in grass has never been so much fun

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 03:01:48 GMT

i cant begin to tell you how much this one girl means to me...
how much i enjoy myself when im with her

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 03:35:03 GMT

Who am I to look at my brother and point out what is wrong with him?
Who am I to say what he feels is wrong?
Who am I to judge?
Am I so holy and right that I can look and say what you feel is wrong?
Can I see what hearts feel.. what people feel?
Yes through the bible I may sharpen my brother,
through what God says is right and wrong.
But for me to say "Well I dont think..."
Is flat out, 100%, absolutly wrong.
For what I think means nothing, nothing at all.
But what God thinks, yes, what God thinks and says,
that is wisdom. There is the power to judge.
Not within me.
I cannot see what people feel.
I am not called here to tell people what they should and shouldnt feel.
Im called here to love.
To love with everything ive got... everything i am.
Even to those who hit me when im down.
Because i have thrown many punches, and He still gave His life...
for me.

-someone who messes up

God is love and love is real

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 21:53:09 GMT

::insert much complaining about NY and how i want to go home realllllly bad here::

ive never missed someone so much in my life

-a person who is ready to go home

<3 you

there arent enough <'s and 3's...

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 05:16:52 GMT

and i could write a song, one-hundred miles long, well thats where i belong... and you belong with me

iuno... drawing!

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 02:22:20 GMT

a selfish love

i could hold your hand forever...

Tue, 31 May 2005 02:43:04 GMT

i wouldnt trade the last 12 hours for the world <3

all glory and honor and praise

please please please..

Mon, 16 May 2005 23:11:27 GMT

if everyone whos reading this could do me a HUGE favor and pray for me and my parents. i have an awesome opportunity to do something really cool, but my parents are leaning towards not letting me, they said they will pray about it and talk it over so theres still a chance they'll let me do it. so if everyone could just keep me in prayer that would be amazing. just pray that the Lord keeps my parents hearts open to what his will is, and that weather the answer is a yes or no that i will be content with it. please please dont dicard this post, just lift up a quik prayer and that would be awesome.

thanks,
<3 Fil